The Satanic Screw Machine - A Response to "My Name is Pedophilia"

Debbie Drexler, Daddy's Girl

A Response to "My Name is Pedophilia and I am Legion"


Today i wanted to leave forever, never see you again, hang myself, get over with everything, escape the devil finally.

But you are only 4 now. you need me. Your father fucks you. I am your mother, he fucked me so he can have you, his legal personal property, to fuck. He loves children. Also, one does not simply escape the devil.

Year of the lord, 2010. October in London. I wish i would be in Iran, under a hijab, under a sack. I wish i would be a wife in Saudi. most of all I wish i would be Muhammed's wife if i have no choice in this world but to be somebody's something. i heard a rumor that he is kind.

Once i called my embassy over events here, and they told me that the UK is worse than saudi, men have power and women are fukced in this power, power not even in the name of god, just in the name of power. I am on this planet just for visit, my nationality should be meaningless but in hell such things matter.

The london court chewed over this, the judge was stretching his words, starred at me "and the mother said her embassy said.." and the lawyers present, family lawyers, slaves & donkeys of the horned one the lot, giggled - 'o lordy.

O lord strike them all & strike them hard. Eradicate this evil that calls itself the law. The law of this human landscape that drops bombs on children, maims, tortures and rapes in the name of their personal satans, greed, envy, lust to fuck the weak, exploitation. land of satan, I spit on you. Liars, hipocrits, cowards, slimy bunch of shits.

Another boy in iraq has both hands blown off. collateral damage. four years ago the fighter jets paraded over the skies of london, queen's birthday, and my thought was, this country will fuck both, her and you, look at their joy in killing, Their pride, these are soulless creatures, run. And so I did, I ran, with her.

Play with my tits, fuck me up the arse. I rather be a bride of Muhammed but live in a land like this. but i am still here, we got dragged back & got fucked more. A muslim with beard and hair like black velvet, says in saudi they would hack a paedophiles' head off in public. would they? the journey into abuse and the maze of it seems endless. did Muhammed (pbuh) know that children are fucked by their fathers, did Jesus know? Did anybody think it is as wrong as murder? That it is the original sin before all sins? The devil in our collective nightmare, is it the father fucking us up the arse?

Heros go to war, bodies come home. Turkey, Russia, Iran form a coalition, coffins are brought back to us & uk from iraq and afghanistan. no more says heroes, only a picture on page 12 of the sun newspaper. a heroes goodbye, a heroes welcome?  idiocy. the war goes on since ever. lord safe us from our own love for doom and gloom. we are all fucked. make an ad for the MOD, join the war, have fun, loose both legs, loose your mind. Or stay at home and get fucked here, loose your mind anyway. The village in front of you lost everybody, somewhere in Helmand province, only 2 dogs left. Why do we cry? Why do have any tears left to cry?  Do rivers run dry? Israel, the satanic screw machine screws with our heads. We, the Jews defend ourselves through murder from murder. We are all Jews. Or Arabs, or whatever. All equally fucked by the Satanic Screw machine.

O lord, release us from this evil. Plant a meadow into our hearts, save our souls. Her soul.Throw me to the wolves instead. May they choke on my bones.

The forensic psychiatrist who 'assessed me' when I insisted that my child is abused by her own father said that I would be very creative in defending my position that my child, you, is abused by it's own father. Damn right she is. I can imagine her working well and to full satisfaction for these fascists. She is an average psychiatry gun to hire. If you want to fuck people up the arse you need to fuck them in the head first. And then again, and again. They fuck people well in the UK, don"t they.

O lord, please let me marry Muhammed. Send me a nice muslim man to marry as widow of tears. Let me go to mosque, and pray 5 times a day, rescue us from this evil. What do you want me to do mother? Father? God? Goddess?

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Moments come and go, like atomic drops in the ocean of time.

The moment you were born you were taken. Hands of surgeons grabbed you, pulled you, bored faces of nurses stared at you. And you looked at me with your dark endless eyes. Telling me everything.

I thought, you! You are here. And I thought, this man, he is going to kill me one day. What a thought to have on your birthday. Like the movement of a dark wing in the corner of my eye. You vanished for 2 hours, put on a drip, while I was in recovery from onslaught of a man, your father, knifes and surgery. Screaming for you, my child, baby. Then you were put on my chest and he laughed, and squeezed my breast until it bleed, but no milk ran free. Later this day he ushered friends in, his child, here it is. I took a photograph of him, you in his clutches, him starring at the camera, showing me his evil possessive eye, finally full frontal, and still I was in the dark chambers of reason. And then a hospital registrar was ushered in, and no legal information was given, and  by my signature, I sealed the devil's contract, to sign your soul over to him, legally binding. Your father, a devil, just another devil amongst devils clapping each other's back.

In the many months of searching to trace back history I discovered that his thoughts were like a maze erected around me. I saw pillars and signs, but still my average human reasoning that there is no real evil in this life, made me blind. In some moments I felt clearly that I would just give you to him, he would raise you, and I do not know why I thought this. I thought maybe I am just another bad mother, and my child, you, shall have a father, a father I never had. But such a father? Then I ushered back from those thoughts, they seemed so irrational, I can not defend them for one moment. The maze of things was endless, all signs were there, and I could not decipher them, was blinded. My own lack of Ma presence.

Your father is a paedophile who came into my life when I searched to have a child & family. It took me long to understand and accept that he came to groom & possess me so he can groom & possess you. Legally. How could I have been so blind? Just before I meet him I read about a woman's misfortune, not unrelated, and thought, this can never happen to me, I am too clever and intuitive. Yet it happened to me, exactly for these reasons.

You need to know that your father is a highly intuitive man who digs into people's desires and emotional needs, and he manipulates the love out of people, because that is what he has learned. That he can not be loved for himself, and indeed his deep hidden & concealed inner evil makes him most repulsive. He is a charmer, he enchants, mesmerizes, and a winner in a world in which most people hide inner demons and let them run hidden, worship ego and desire to manipulate and lust to abuse others and as long as they get away with crimes they commit they are winners. It is not about justice, it is about getting away with it in this world I lost you to. It is a world that abuses the love out of people. Nothing is giving for free and without punishment. I call it hell on earth.

I remember that I always felt uncomfortable to leave you alone with him. On the day I returned with you from hospital he was with us and asked me to go for a nice little walk. You were 4 days old. I did so, following his reasonable argument that I need some fresh air. And I sat in the park for 10 minutes and thought of you and felt a deep discomfort and ushered back, and he sat there with you in his arm, squeezed to his chest, while looking at his computer. And this continued, his reasonings why he needs to be alone with you, while I need a break, that I am weakened from the cut. And I remember that something inside of me started to rise and struggle, and he shouted and screamed and left, but only after conditioning me that I agree to leave you with him 3 nights/week by intervention of your appointed so callled God(devil) father, his best friend. How could I have been so blinded? And I reasoned that I would use these days to work, because  he claimed he had no money to give and no means to support. And because I believed I am strong I went on with it, for 6 weeks, and felt deepest discomfort. And when I protested about the care you receive he threatened me to remove you from me, and he told me he would use a long past eating disorder against me. All of this he eventually did successfully. At the time my dread grew, and I persuaded him to give me my keys to my apartment back. And still I was in doubt, did not understand. Only this inner call, that I have to be strong, that something is very very wrong. And eventually I pulled the plug, almost 3 months after you were born. I kept the door shut and told him to seek help for his violent temper and until such time he can not be alone with you.

From that time onwards he knew that I knew what he does to you, although he didn't know how much I knew if I only suspect. In fact all I knew at the time is that there is a dark confusing shadow I could not decipher. All factual evidence I had was the things he did to me, and what people on some advice lines told me about domestic violence. All I knew is that I had to protect you.

Why are some fathers monsters? Why do people kill? Maim? Subject others to abuse? We do not know and I have no answer either beloved Pearl. All I know is that I love you and that I will not rest until you are free. Because it is your birthright, that nobody can take away from you. In the beginning, last year, after they took you from me and delivered you to him I thought I have to run and leave you, that you are lost and that is it my lot and your decision for not speaking up and struggling against it. But you were just three, and you did talk, but nobody listened to you, even less then they listened to me. The satanic screw machine was in full motion and psychiatrists, 2 of them, assessed that I have narcistic traits and never accept that others know better. One of them, a Dr A, has a reputation for betrayal and it is suspected he can be bribed. Meta-knowlesge, no proof. Other mothers were locked up in institutions, possibly by the very same people, it is a machine that feeds its own myth and horror. Like wounded animals these mothers run on the streets, seeking justice against this monstrosity within our midst. And still their howling is not heard, not by a system that administers it all and is feed by monsters. It all has a clear beginning and cause.

Let me talk about love. Love is not what your father teaches you, a submission to a persons will and desire so you are worthy to be loved in return. Love is your inner source and fire, a sacred grail of creation and joy. People who do not feel this joy of creation in them see the world in stone and grey and are driven by a yearning to get hold of your fire to feel love within them. They do not understand that love is from an unmaterial source. It does not serve abuse and can never be given in abuse. Love has no currency. Love is in the opening of your hand, a beam of light that enlightens the room, a tender smile, a gentle touch without touching. Love is never intrusive, always respectful, always responding. It is the very source of life itself. Some people call it God's love because it is so elusive. Love never hurts others. Sometimes love comes to teach us lessons, as love is also very strong, and a call to arms to defend it. When monsters come to hurt you, reach out to love and love will rise and protect you. Always belief in love only and that you are sacred.

Sometimes I think, this is so bizarre, it is not real, it can't be my life, I will wake up from this nightmare. Alas, it is my life and my nightmare I can not wake up from. Through this nightmare I saw the other nightmares of this world more clearly, the deceptions we all live in, the constant attacks of evil against love and our souls.

Right now our souls are in the stone garden, but the day will come when we both can be free again in the rose gardens of joy. Hold on my love, hold on.

My name is Pedophilia and I am Legion

Art from 'Daddy's Girl' by Debbie Drexler ~ Gratitude

 I am a demon

 

I am the demon humanity fears the most, as it knows itself in me captured and taken hostage. Humanities darkest dreams feed me, and  I am the most common, the most unthinkable, the most denied - I abuse the children. My demonic nature is in the deceit of every politician, in every treacherous deed of any double agent. Come, look for my spirit. You find me in the policemen, the bureaucrat, the doctor, the nurse, the politician, the teacher.  I am the good citizen, subject and neighbor. The best friend at your side, the man who self-sacrifices, who dedicates himself. The man you entrust your children to with your life. Thank you for rewarding my efforts. I am in every perverted crime, every injustice and every lie that flourishes in the name of pleasure and power.  But at that stage you can see me for what I really am and you would have worked me out. And by then we can make a safe bet that it is already too late. Thank you for your trust, idiot.

How do I do it?

First I manage to attach myself to you so my deceit can flourish in you, and I make thsi happen through you gullible trust. I use your mind against you. What you want to see I let you see. I hide best for you in the very disguise you want me to be in.

You want me to be kind, a kind lover, a careful listener? I will be. And I will write down your secrets and hold them safe for later use against you. You want me to be caring? I will be. I will bring your granny to her care home forth and back and will hold her hand when she is dying. And later on I will make sure everybody knows how you abandoned her when she needed you most. I am what you want me to be, all that you can’t be, all that you really need and I will be much more. You can be really weak with me my darling, because the weaker you are the stronger I get. Because I am what I am, I will deceive you in every minute you know me, I will rape your very core, I will manipulate you and disembowel you while you go on trusting me. You damn pretty fool. You don’t even feel how I rape you, as your are under anesthetic  with your day dreams, everyday petty troubles and confusions and I will keep you right there, in your confusions and day dreams.

You know, women like you want to be fooled, you want to be hurt, you want to be blind, there are so many things in you you do not know but I know everything about you. I am your dark shadow, the man that lurks in the night, I am the nightmare. I am demon. And I am Legion.

Come, look for my spirit. You find me in the policemen, the bureaucrat, the doctor, the nurse, the politician, the judge. They all protect me. They are all me. Wave your banners, do your sit ins, scream for justice. I am demon, and I know your efforts are futile. I am the crocodile's tear, I am the villain who gave birth to all villains, I am in all your evils and insecurities, all your pettiness and fears. I know you better than you do, I steal your mind and what may be left of your innocence, and I do all this to steal your children. Ah, the children.The smell of those...

All demons are terrible in their own right, as terrible as humanity can imagine murder, violence, war, injury and illness, but in smooth and discreet me they know they are meeting the worst. In the past they called me shapeshifter, in Africa they still do. I am the mind that takes memory away, I am the hand that takes your flesh’s innocence, I steal your children and I steal you. I am the spirit of pedophilia and I am legion. I am the seed of all that is evil and I am the king in my empire that is hell. 

Why do I do it? Because I can. Why I create a child to have for my own? Why I abuse my own child? How can you even ask? Isn’t it the most legal way to go about it? Are we not all governed by the same material systems and laws? I got her through you and why not, you stupid creature? You gave yourself to me like a willing sheep. Ah, how you delighted me, you gave everything to me, believing in this petty romantic idea of love. Pity for you? Oh, I do have nothing but pity for you. Pity is all you have left woman. Oh you were such a miracle. So intelligent, as only women can be, and yet so stupid, as only women can be - a typical product of your culture. What a woman you were. Pretty. Willing. Fertile. Ready. Perfect. The perfect sleeping accomplice for my plan. May God, if he does exist, bless your kind heart.

What I did not quite expect is your inner resistance and struggle. Something in you did know what happened. That part in you I had to control with methods I had to invent every day anew. But that mistrust kept flickering in you dimly like a weak little light. I told you it’s your psychological issues. You accepted that, what else could you do. The methods of my persuasion and oppression I have learned and refined over many years, you had no chance my dear. Before you were pregnant and while you were pregnant I had to be  careful, cause I had to stick close, although you bored the hell out of me. But I also had to give you fear and confusion  and  much self-doubt and when possible loads of self-hatred so you would cling to me and continue your multitude of sins against yourself.  I had to control any kind of light in you, so I can control you entirely, so I could eventually control her entirely. It is that simple. By that time you had woken up it was too late my puppet. Too late.  By the time you woke up she was 2, and she was from thereon to become legally totally mine - me as her sole carer - and you became a legally certified nutcase and were publicly labeled a malicious liar. Sealed by a hateful Psychiatrist and all. Ah, what fun we had. Your sad little fight made my total victory over you just so much more enjoyable. 

You know what I enjoyed the most? How you tried to persuade people that you are saying the truth, but every time you said the truth it was a further nail in your coffin. Oh, how I laughed about the social workers turning up at my house and comforting me, that the mother of my beloved daughter is such an evil woman, so sick. “Me, sexually abusing my own child? It is unthinkable, I mean, can you imagine? Look at that woman, the lies she says, does she have proof, no, no proof at all, she never had. My daughter told her? Lies lies and nothing but lies. How old is my daughter? 2? She can hardly talk, come on...” Oh, and how I laughed, how they all protected me, the judge, the called in experts, the social workers, the police, the whole lot. Despite multiple evidence, they believed what I made them to believe, like they all wanted her to be screwed by me. And indeed, that is what I made to want. Because I am a perfect reflection of their own abusive and abused shadows. 

Oh it was all easy, I myself was stunned how easy it was, how gullible these people are, and those who weren’t entirely convinced, I convinced them. I made them agree through their fears and dependencies and self-interests, their pride, their stupidly inflated minds and shriveled dried out hearts. Oh it was such a pleasure. My victory over you was a total one. And you were so extra-ordinarily stupid on top of all the stupidity you already had committed against yourself and her to aid me. Believing the system would protect you and your sweet child? Don’t you know that the system is me? And that my demonic spirit is legion?

To be continued.. 

Going Naked with the Truth ~ Coming out about Pedophila and System Cover ups

Why accept to keep silent about something you should never ever keep quiet about?

No matter what 'they' threaten you with (and they threaten plenty). Speak up.
Speak up about the abuse of children and the systems that cover it up.
Speak up about your own abuse. Speak up about the abuse of children. Yours, your neighbour's. Do not accept and cover lies.

Truth is a gift, and a path to bring love to those who are told love is dead and only a means to an end. 

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GOING NAKED WITH THE TRUTH

http://www.goingnakedwiththetruth.com

What does Pedophilia has to do with Breastmilk & Nude Yoga?

Since a couple of days an image of a breast feeding woman in handstand position who suckles her child makes the rounds on social media. Facebook is censoring those who share the image and multiple complaints / reports go around, and some very heated arguments go on that this image would turn on pedos.

Now let's be clear, this image is indeed circulating also via some blogs with definite abusive content, what I have seen are mainly fantasies about abusing women which is closely linked to pedophilia - it's an interlinked power trip. However, I would like to free this image from such abuse and set some things straight.

It is a theory which I hear often, that the image of a baby sucking on a breast will turn pedos on. Now, let's be clear, if pedos would be that simple we could catch them all in a museum with middle ages art depicting the holy mother with nude baby Jesus. But alas, we don't find Pedophiles publicly masturbating in the museums, we need to think a bit harder then this about the subject.

Pedophiles are more then ever creatures of an abusive legal, media and governmental system which I call 'The Empire'. They work extremely well with the system and hide within it's shadows and it's very centre.

So, here are the basic rules on - what turns a pedophile on?:

1) Pedophiles hide within the system itself, as teacher, best friend, nurse, babysitter, football trainer, police man etc. They either abuse within the family and/or go out to befriend children. What turns them on is to deceive, manipulate, confuse and play head games with people's stereotypes, belief systems and naivity. They target and make victims. That's what they do and fanasize about.

2) Pedophiles enjoy abusing children and for that purpose they like to meet other pedophiles and swap images of increasingly more severe abuse as it demonstrates their 'special powers'. Pedophiles don't enjoy sexuality, they enjoy feeling pervert power and creating pain for that purpose. Let's be very clear about this. So, they dont enjoy seeing a mother feeding her baby, it simply lacks the abuse aspect. If there is one advice this mother can give in this regard - suckle your babies! The more and better you feed them the better the bond between you and your children and the less chance for anybody to invade your children and you!!!

3) The puritanical hype in the media and in many people's head over innocent images such as this one of Yoga Mama is typical for the kind of hype Empire produces to distract us from the real issues. Law enforcement knows that pedophilia is increasingly interlinked with organized crime but nothing happens from their end. The numbers of children who are abused within the family increases steadily, just like state abuse of people increases. It can and shall be debatted how Empire itself benefits from pedophilia and organized abuse within the family and in society. It is a debate that has not happened yet. It is only thanks to Anonymous that the pedophile network actitivities in the Darknet got at least some more public attention. That pit of online pedos is bottomless - millions of images and movies of children being gagged, raped and beaten are circulating. And facebook and some puritanical souls take issues with this image? We got work to do folks - clear your minds of that deceit.

What would be helpful is for facebook to explain it to people straight why they censor images. Very often really creepy stuff makes it while innocent displays of plain thing such as breastfeeding are censored. We know it has to do with IPs, country laws etc, but to facebook users - it creates many wrong messages.

I got one message for those freaks that display this image in their creepy demon collections - WE ARE LEGION!

Pedophiles and the Empire's Pact with Mephisto

 So, it is agreed that Pedophiles operate like demons, well, actually - they are demons incarnate in a person. And like the demons in the global human archetype stories of all traditions, they invade people's minds and ride them were they are vulnerable and weak and perceptive to evil.

The concept of strength that one must have against these demons is a very different one than the one that is sold to humanity. The strength that one requires to detect and defeat them are intuition, honesty, humbleness, spiritual awareness, and straight forward - real love. What aint working is fear, greed, self-interest before all other (the famous number one), hesitancy, pride, ambition etc. A pedophile at work will sniff all this out in an instant and will take you and your kids straight from there to his hell.

What I have seen at the courts and the people involved to 'protect' children seems sometimes beyond belief, but here it is:

• Child has serious symptoms of sexual abuse - authorities ignore it, violating protocol. Worse even, groups of child protection people discuss it and say - it is just a coincidence, never mind that man was already accused before.

• Child says its hurt and by whom - authorities ignore it. Child has officially no right to say anything, and it's just a child, isn't it?

• Experts have business links with lawyers of pedophiles - governmental authorities ignore it, keep on violating protocol. These experts do their best to suppress evidence and voices at court. Nobody raises alarm, the person who does gets condemned. A public handshake between 'science' and crime. No trouble with that. Have seen it all.

• Police has concrete evidence it does not follow up. Things don't add up? No problem, we go too much to do and no training.

• Lawyers of pedophiles hide evidence - no problem. Once the trial is over, who cares? They got away with it, so they win. The child? Who cares.

• Suspected pedophile is known to befriend solely and habitually people with children  - police ignores it during investigation - no problem. He is just a very nice man.

• Pedophiles take out gag orders against people who believe their children and press charges. So they can not 'slander'. Clever lawyers for clever pedophiles.

• 12 little girls say they were molested by one teacher and he walks free due to alleged coaching of girls by parents. Clever lawyers for clever pedophiles.

These kind of stories I can list forever. And, beware what I am saying now, they happen most of all in the USA, the UK and Australia. The Anglo-Saxon bastions of  our civilization, with all it's oppression of the natural instinct and in particular the female knowledge. These cultures cherish like no other deception, lies, cunning, mischief and intrigue, in fact, the entire British Empire rose and flourished on the ability to manipulate and create havoc by declaring war on the soul. In the pedophile the Empire found it's key character, it's epiphany, it's Mephisto - the pedophile is the manifestation of the Empire and how it sold out it's people. To see the pedophile at work is to see the Empire at work.

The witches that are burned nowadays by the Puritan inquisition are the women that report abuse to the authorities, the immigrant women in abusive dependencies with children that have no hope for help without loosing their children to the abusers, the women who report what their children are telling them about abuse - all these women are quartered, hanged and burned by the UK, US and Australian authorities. When the women scream, fight back and shout they get declared insane, if they fight back through lawyers they are declared evil and manipulative. If the woman looses temporarily her marbles due to the extreme mental abuse she gets sectioned. Countless stories I have seen and heard about, countless stories of women having lost their children to the pedophiles they are married to, to whose chlldren they gave birth not sensing early enough who these men are, countless stories of children weeping and pleading and nobody is listening to them. Countless. Countless stories of women and children being treated like the cattle one only keeps for it's meat.

I asked myself so often - how is this all possible? How do the pedophiles do it? Well, they can bank safely on a few basic things - all people OF the Empire hate on principal everything that's female. And all people that are IN the Empire want to hate what the Empire tells them to hate.

They hate all that is female - that is intuition, natural knowledge, wildness, beauty, untamed deep sexuality, freedom of mind, spirit and soul. They all want it, but they fight it because they do not understand how to have it. And the more beautiful and desirable a woman, the more evil she is in the eye of Empire.

In Empire everybody says - how sad, how tragic, but.. well, eh, yes that great "but". "But, I have to take care of myself" "But, I am scared" "But, I feel something is creepy here, but I am all alone" "I am worried over this child, but nobody will ever believe me" "I feel something's strange here but I follow protocol because that's safe" and so on and so on. Now listen, this is not what goes on in just the average person, this is what goes on in police that messes up evidence, this is what goes on in a social worker that doesn't pay attention, this is what goes on in a district judge who wants to become a high court judge, this is what goes on in expert that makes shady deals with lawyers and businesses behind closed doors. This is what goes in cases where children are abused and exploited in broad day light, but nobody gives a rat's ass and when it does eventually come out, everybody is oh so puzzled. Truth is - everybody knows what the truth is, but they rather don't listen out of sheer egotistical motives. No excuses. They sold their soul to Mephisto, who is the Empire, and who dares to leave Mephisto, the guy with the money, the status, the sense of order, the false and brittle peace. Millions die for the oil empire needs - why does that make any sense? Because Empire declares it so, and what can we do? Open the door into your soul and see what really goes on. Look the Mephisto in your own soul straight in the eye.

Those who venture into the land of fighting abuse have to leave their deals with Mephisto and the Empire of fear behind. Because every deal with Mephisto plays into the hands of the pedophile. A skilled pedophile knows human weakness like no other creature on earth and he will invade your mind, please you, charm you and fucking black mail you with all the insane rubbish humanity hangs on to. It's very own oppression and self-abuse and abuse of others and Mother Earth. To free a child from abuse means to free oneself from the Mephistos in one's soul first.

Sexual Abuse: A Slaughter of Innocence, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

A Slaughter of Innocence - by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

This article first appeared May 7, 2010

Read full article here:
http://www.uscatholic.org/church/2010/05/slaughter-innocence

Making it through the dark night of the priest pedophilia crisis and arriving at truth and reconciliation requires an unflinching examination of our consciences.

When King Herod the Great learned from the Magi that they were seeking a newborn child who would become king over all, he ordered a slaughter of the innocents. Herod, then 75 years old, was not new to murderous revenges-and he would eventually kill his own grown son. Rather than risk losing his estate, he instead ragefully ordered that all of Bethlehem's precious boy babies under 2 years of age be murdered in their cradles.

Pick up your Bible, and surely the very page weeps blood as you read, "A voice was heard in Ramah, wailing and loud lamentation, Rachel weeping for her children; she refused to be consoled, because they are no more" (Matt. 2:18).

The anguished Rachel is awakened again today. Who here cannot hear the terrible weeping for the children of our own time? Lord, hear our prayer. Awaken us. May the slaughter of innocents never be allowed again.

But today we have to do more than just pray. Let us learn the harsh facts and not turn away. Let us act, link arms across the world to better protect all children. I think I speak for many Catholics when I say we could not be one ounce more heartsick and strewn with ashes than we are right now over hearing of some priests using children for sexual gratification. Let this be our prayer, forever and always: Awaken. Be awake. Remain awake.

As a psychoanalyst practicing clinically for 32 years, I am not a priest, not a theologian. But perhaps, ultimately, I am someone far more dangerous-a Latina grandmother with a fierce glint in her eye who knows several somethings about moral formation. As I see it, our first task here is to acknowledge that sexual intrusion against children exists and apparently far more often than we would ever think to imagine. Next we must apply proper spiritual and temporal remedies for every soul's recovery from this modern slaughter of the innocents.
The issues require excruciating differentiation so as not to harm those who have already made their admissions and paid their debts; not to falsely accuse; not to sacrifice for the sake of the status quo or the institution any child or adult who is blameless; not to allow righteous anger at perpetrators to demean all the other priests who have lived honorably; not to allow solely legal postures to dominate this process. I hope we can look closely and be willing to hold firmly accountable those who have intruded, while also exonerating justly when appropriate.

From decades in post-trauma work-both with war veterans and with victims of massacres and natural disasters-I know that the steps to help mend this tremendous laceration to the souls of many will take much time. The burden is very heavy, and the night is bitter cold, but I believe we can make it across this la noche oscura del alma, as San Juan de la Cruz called it, this "dark night of the soul." The way through this dark night can come through self-- inquiry, both as individuals and as a group. We can stop the secrecy by telling the whole story by the light of day.

The sacrament of Reconciliation can provide the model. In this sacramental assessment of our own motives, foibles, and oversights, we are given a way of asking that the disattached heart, mind, body, soul, and spirit be mended back together and made whole again.
Whether in medicine, psychology, or theology, we know that a sickness lying underneath the skin and left without effective treatment will infect and devastate the entire body. It will eventually suppurate and rise to the surface, destroying all living tissue. This is what has apparently occurred in the matter of certain priests sexually abusing children. Medicine must be administered, and quickly. Can prayers be antibiotics? Yes. Can goodwill help? Yes. But far more is needed-a psychic surgery, excision, grafts. Where to make the cuts, what to excise?

I strongly believe we should start with scanning ourselves.
Unconsciously or not and in varying degrees of responsibility and culpability, we have been rampantly negligent in questioning our own naivete about who and how others administer accountability and justice; in the need for vigilance regarding children; in our learning the true facts about mental disorders in our times; about evil being a palpable force in the modern world that can overwhelm reason and resolve; and about the proximity of children to disordered adults being the perfect feast set out for those who raven and sexually overwhelm the young.

We are not alone in responsibility here. Naivete, sluggish comprehension, and studied ignorance about how predators of many kinds easily savage those who are vulnerable infects our entire culture. Child sex slavery. Children caged in cellars. Children lured through the Internet. Food withheld as punishment. Beatings that blind and deafen children for life. Children murdered daily in heart, spirit, and body. These atrocities do not only occur in isolated wadis halfway across the world. They can and do occur right down the street, in our own villages.

Pedophilia is an illness, not a job description. This disorder is found in all ethnic groups and social classes. Others who are not priests intrude on the young as well. One of the greatest helps children can be given is to be kept away from such persons. The greatest help a person suffering from this disease can be given is to isolate them from children. No honor accrues to the fox-or anyone else-by setting out little chicks in order to test whether the fox has been "adequately rehabilitated" or not...

Continue to read here:

http://www.uscatholic.org/church/2010/05/slaughter-innocence

Open the doors to the hell - knowing and detecting and uprooting sexual abuse

Bluebeard

We live in a world of cover ups and lies. Governments lie to us, priests lie to us, bosses lie to us, people lie to us. Of all people pedophiles are the peek of people of the lie. They incorporate all the traits of a world in hell. They attract, groom and silence their victims, play with the inner lies of the bystanders, find support amongst peers and know to cover it all successfully up.

Outrage over recent Penn state scandal? Give me a break, honestly, these things happen all the time, with full support and cover up of many. The corruption starts when people ask themselves 'shall I report this? how will it affect me?'. Then we know - oh dear, we are all for sale and so is innocence. We are all part of hell through our silence and false egos. Hell in our world is a collaborative dish. And pedophiles know that.

So what do you do if you know, there is a pedophile with their victims sitting behind that  door, he/they attempted to keep hidden, with all the terrible secrets, all the terrible shame and pain behind it. You face the door and open it. You face the voices of fear in your mind. You face the voices that attempt to scare and confuse you. You face it and you stand up and you open that God damn door so that the light comes into this hell, this darkness and the light of truth illuminates the space, that is your soul and the soul of the innocents you heard, believed and freed from abuse.


The Tale of Bluebeard (after Clarissa Pinkola Estes)

Once upon a time...
Three sisters were courted by a noble man who had an unusual blue beard. Two of them were frightened of this blue beard, but the third one fell for his charm and married him.

She may do whatever she wants in his absence, open every door in his huge castle, except one. But curiosity wins out.

Encouraged by her sisters, she opens the forbidden door and sees the blood and dismembered corpses of Bluebeard’s previous wives. She understands what is in store for her.

Once Bluebeard found out that she has seen the hidden chamber, he comes after her. “Please, allow me to compose myself and prepare for my death” she pleads and was granted a quarter of an hour. She has no intention of going quietly into her slaughter.

She posts her sisters on the castle ramparts and shouts “Sisters, sisters, do you see our brothers coming?” And the brothers do show up, just in the nick of time, and kill Bluebeard “leaving for the buzzards his blood and gristle”.

Pedophiles and Other Creatures of the Lie in the Darknet

We received good news that Anonymous targeted pedophiles online and in particular also those who cover for this crime, namely the server provider and the law enforcement agencies that don't interfere. Pedophiles sozialize and help each other online, organize themselves, trade in images and movies of child abuse and porn in the so called Dark Nets, these are networks which are not accessible via browsers or standard software of PCs. Indeed many pedophile are also crackingly skilled hackers, equipped with the knowledge of how to hide, manipulate and screw around not just people and their children, but in particular also human technical and administrative systems, including the systems that are supposed to protect us.

I am proposing not less here but to call this hellish pedophilia sub-culture of abuse for what it is, a hell, but one that is much more in tune with our very systems of governing, thinking and analysing the world then we dare to imagine. They are the hell we thought we have rationalized out of our orbits, the hell we thought we are protected ourselves against, by being enlightened and explaining our world through rational science. Unfortunately, we have not yet digged the nature of evil, neither the nature of evil governments nor of evil pedophiles. In the dark net they meet, and in the dark net we must hunt them down. And this includes the dark nets of our own minds, as this is the very place we are controlled trough.

An estimated 110.000 child sex offenders are registered in the UK alone. The real numbers are much higher. One habit all pedophiles share (next to the actual abuse itself) is the trading and sharing of images of child abuse. There are now millions of abuse images and materials online. The police and law enforcement has long lost overview over the pedophilia scene, which is now also linked to organized crime, and in their trail to corruption of the very systems that is supposed to protect us against organized evil. Rather logical - because how can evil possibly protect from evil?

One has to always remember that each image of a child abused is a victim abused for life (one simple idea: every time a pervert looks at an image of abuse the victim is again victimized). Millions of images mean millions of victims. With such a dramatic rise in the amount of material and victims required one wonders why for example the UK cuts the fund for anti-pedophile police work. One has to assume that the governments just dont fucking care and that abuse of the most vulnerable through the most manipulative is the core motto of the game we are all in - if it would all go according to our corporations, governments and their enforcement bodies. Keep quiet and get fucked. Indeed, it is so, that an endless amount of children are abused in the darknet that is the UK system of abuse itself. When it comes to the situation in the UK I can talk from much experience - the situation there is more then dire, it is criminal neglect by the government. But am I surprised? About this cover up and ignorance of a government that manipulates so cunningly that people pay willingly for fat cats, that children are beaten up in the roads and that allows its police to shot people at random and then attempt to falsify the evidence? Am I surprised that an abusive government that habitually cheats and lies and manipulates is actually totally willing to let pedophiles do what they want to do best - abuse? No, and fucking no, I am not surprised.

Abuse is a circle, and it breeds in the dark. We must all break the circle by bringing light into our own darkness, our abusive governments, administrations, bank systems, the way we work, the way we think and interact with each other. There is no escaping from this responsibility.We must seek, recognize and fight for the truth. Pedophiles expect us - we are legion.

More to know:

The Pentagon & Child Porn Scandal

What is Child Porn?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Child_pornography

War, Occultism & Ritual Child Sexual Abuse

In the name of God, most high, the only reality.

We are all locked in the cage

What is it with sex and power? What is with sex and occult practices? What is with sex & war? What is with sex with children that this day & age finds so absorbingly fascinating in all it's evil and hypocrisy and unwillingness to protect? What is that drives our world into the tolerance of the most evil kinds of abuse? Do we not even twitch anymore when we hear about all the atrocities? We are numb and asleep.

These days I am thinking a lot about the state of sleep we are all put in. How we are told that there is no God, no spiritual reality, and that all we have is just this material reality. Work, screw (if at all), drop dead. In the same time frame there is more and more war, more abuse of humans, more abuse of children in domestic as well as wider social scenarios, of which open war is just one facet. It also has become completely common practice by now that people - even those within family and friend situations, not mentioning economic power situations - try to blackmail others into sex against their will. Why not? In this world sex is just another commodity, isn't it? It's just our bodies sweating stuff out? Huh.

Right now I am reading the news of the killing of Hamza al Khateeb. Hamza is a 13 years old boy from “Al Jeezah” or “Al Giza” village in Daraa province. His tragedy started when he marched with his family in a rally to break the siege of the city of Daraa. He was detained by the Syrian government among hundreds of others during the massacre of Siada.

Hamza Ali Al-Khateeb

After weeks of absence Hamza was returned to his family as a dead body with torture marks and with his genitals removed. Yes his body was full of torture marks and bullets. They cut his genitals then they killed him according to his autopsy he was shot down after cutting his genitals.

What barbaric times do we live in that children are captured, sexual abused & tortured & then killed? What force drives people, who were once children themselves, to commit such monstrosities?

Tragically such events are much more common place then we want to pay attention to.

To make myself very clear - I believe that any form of violence and abuse is a form of Satanism and worship of the dark occult. People can be caught in being abusive without per se full intentions, but they can be non the less instruments, sleepers, by acting out against others, following their lower selfish drives, which includes being violent, abusive, selfish and sexually exploitative towards others (mainly men towards women, but the same comes also from women towards men). Such people I describe as sleepers with average forms of possession.

The step into the conscious occult is taken when a person actively and fully concious manipulates people, adults & children, into sex and exploitation (physical, emotional, psychological, economical) and uses for this purpose psychological trickery, hypnotic mental tools, black mail etc.

The full blown sexual occultist is a person who does all of these things combined with spiritual rituals (usually satanic sex magic, whatever that may be) that are designed to call upon dark forces to aid his/her will. Children are spiritually very pure beings, and it is therefore not surprising that the various dark occultists (I have to point out Westerners are more inclined to take that nasty step) have a taste to abuse children for this purpose. Why the matter is so vehemently denied and kept down is a relating issue & in more than one way self-explanatory.

Yes, all the various tales of Ritual Satanic Abuse have more then one grain of truth in them. And what happened to the child Hamza in Libya is a true mark of the beast. The beast of hatred, degradation, pain, war fare, exploitation, annihilation, spiritual vampirism and human self destruction.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_of_Hamza_Ali_Al-Khateeb

The Spiritual Dimension of Paedophilia

'God is a fire that warms and kindles the heart and inward parts.'
Prayer to Archangel Michael

'Abuse no one and no thing.' Chayenne Saying

'Deliver us.. From all sin.' Rite of Excorcism

'La Illaha Illa Lah. There is only One God.' Quran

St Michael vs Shaytan

Paedophilia is a spiritual crime.

Paedophilia, incest, child abuse. The world seems riddled with this most awful of crimes, yet it seems it also the most tolerated crime, so accepted that it may even be fully part of a countries social & psychological structure and functioning.

What is hidden from view is for example the fact that an increasing number of children in the West are placed into the care of people who have a proof record of perpetrating domestic violence and abuse and the protective parent loosing not only custody but also access to the child, living in the horror of knowing what is happening to the child/children without having any legal means to stop it. When complaining/fighting their children are force adopted or they loose all parental rights, which is a plight not even happening to convicted abusers. One wonders how this is possible and I will shed light and proof on this particular perverted legal practice of court ordered child abuse and on the manipulation & ignorance twists behind such a horror in due time.It is a nest of snakes we are dealing with here, a collaboration of lawyers, psychiatrists, police, social workers & paedophiles, working hand in hand to make the seemingly impossible possible. How conscious these key people of a just and lawful system are of their collaboration I can at present not tell.

What is written on the spiritual dimension of paedophilia on the English speaking net & in books varies from social work jargon and psychiatry snippets, to rants against gay sexuality to conspiracy statements on ritualistic satanistic abuse and church covered up sexual abuse. As much as there are maybe grains of truth in many, even the most outragous, theories, none of these writings help victims or healing practicioners to come to terms with the reality of this particularly awful form of abuse, not mentioning develop weapons against it, nor stick their sword into it and cut off the snakes' head. 

Paedophile abuse has more then one victim, the victims are:
- The children & their innocent life spirit
- The paedophile, who lost his life spirit long before he started abusing a child
- The family of the paedophiles
- The family of the children
- The groups surrounding the perpetrators & the victims

Further victims are:
All of humanity
God (God can weep too)

I have found hardly anything that explained to me the spiritual nature of this crime nor the spiritual cure for victims and perpetrators alike. When asking a London based organisation about talking to a paedophile in a prison I was firmly warned against it. They told me what is repeatetly said - that paedophiles have no hope for a cure, don't want a cure, can't be cured - that they indeed can never stop lying and manipulating, that their very nature is to manipulate and get into people's (adults & children) mind to control them. Would I meet Hannibal Lecter? Possibly yes - and worse, much worse. I feel in many ways encouraged to hate such people - such people are organized paedophiles, that means - a paedophile who plans & organises his/her crimes. I wonder of there is any kind of humanity left that one can communicate with, that makes such a person redeemable. I feel the problem with hate is, that it is in itself a human mental disease and from the same source as abuse itself. Although we are moving in the outer fringes of what the human mind, psyche & spirit can endure, hate is not the answer, hate is part of the problem. How much love can one have to be able to talk to such people, to be protected from their lies, untouched by their attempts to invade the sanctity of one's mind & soul and still transmit love in it's purest form to them. I will report on my progress with this task in due time. For the time being I call it 'Project Dialogue with the Devil' and pray to Jesus aka Isa.

It is not surprising that paedophilia is commonly associated with satanism & satanic rituals, as the signature of the shaytan we know from the bible & quran is that he is sneaky, manipulative and gets into people's head and uses their weaknesses (such as human kindness, pity, care) against them (usually by confusing them with a feed of constant lies) for his own (bizarre) reasons. Indeed Shaytan is human mental evil personified, and the paedophile is comparible with a Shaytan, as the typical paedophile is said to do nothing but manipulate, pray on our light and our innocense and drags our light (our children, our souls) into darknes, setting traps for us all.

I have to make clear, that I do wish to talk to paedophiles, and although it costs me spiritual much strength to do so I believe it is necessary to get to know the enemy. And the enemy is not the paedophile as such but the evil that possesses him. I will do this eventually, if not now then in 2-3 years. One can not forget - beyond all outrage - that these people are themselves seduced by Shaytan, and I want to know if they can be possibly released from the clutches of the monster and can ever experience any kind of redemption. Without God's help it is not possible to approach this possibility at all. Under God's will it will be decided and the path opens or not. I will also speak to victims, mothers & fathers whose children were abused and who had to fight an incomprehensible legal & social system to save them. Some of them have never succeeded. I want them to be heard & have a voice.

The full dimension in paedophilia  is kept hidden from all of us and I believe firmly that by bringing light into this darkness we will achieve something for human betterment. It is a painful journey in many parts, but I hope I can make it also an enlightening experience that also leaves my visitors uplifted. Evil can be defeated, insh'allah (God willing).

It is difficult not to totally reject any paedophile. However, the longer I am engaging with this subject now (2 years in the subject of child abuse, 5 years in the subject of abuse) the more I realize that the trouble goes much deeper and that it is the  complicity in society & systems to the abuse of children and people in general that is we need to be aware of in this context. Paedophilia is only one hallmark of many of societies that systematically abuse, oppress & manipulate without admitting to it nor are willing to change. Aren't many of us part of such societies and do these societies not tell us (in subtle and not so subtle ways) that we (the citizens) are also culprits by default, simply for being citizens of the systems. When we complain too  much we get clubbed & are encouraged to feel grateful for not getting beaten up more or get treated as bad as such and such. The arguments of child abusers are essentially the same as of human rights abusers in general and in particular, and on grounds of their similarities to the ruling orders child abusers enjoy much success at courts and go pretty much undisturbed about their business. They speak the same language. The few that get caught are just eye candy and foster the public image of paedophiles as low class, visibly disturbed creeps. Indeed, they are not. Paedophiles are smooth power operators and one can find them in everywhere, in all shapes and disguises. They have made a deal with the monster within them and the other  monsters surrounding them and they are most comfortable. Indeed our societies turn a blind eye to abuse & to the abuse of children and have themselves erected systems that allow child sex abuse and the standard abuse of human freedom to flourish, spread and poison our existence.

The number of children & people victimized at courts, raped by abusers & having their human rights consistently violated has dramatically increased since 2001 (more on this soon), since the West marched into Iraq & Afghanistan and it is no coincidence. It is a hidden crime, and that it is hidden is for a good reason.

The subject is so dense that I can approach it only in chunks & themes and at present I do not have a definite road map but only one determined goal. To alert people about the dangers, aid to bring the light of accessible knowledge into this darkness & help people to get away from abuse, protect themselves from the state protected systems of abuse & to help healing those who come to this blog in search for guidance. 

In my experience with victims and professionals in this journey so far I have to say that those without spiritual knowledge and armor are totally unprotected and will most likely fail, as this can not be fought with human will power alone. Paedophilia is an enemy not to be underestimated, that can not be fought with Western science understanding of psychology, cause & effect. Even worse, Western society & science actually opened the gateway to this crime and it's criminals in a windfall beyond belief which makes me wonder if there is actually a collaborative method to all this horror.

Without spiritual guard everybody who fights this evil will in my assessment so far loose, as the tools & methods of this evil are organized and so are it's perpetrators. Paedophile rings do exist and their technical knowledge, political tricks & detailed knowledge of the law and key figures in the system is vast. I mentioned the closeness of abusive state systems & paedophilia for a reason.

Spiritual guard means - because paedohilia abuses your mind (and the mind of your children) first to get hold of your spirit - learn to guard your mind. And you do this by learning spirituality, and by learning spirit you will learn to guard yourself against evil & find the cure for it. One side effect will be that you will become a freer human being.

Angel, unknown model

More to Explore: 

I find serious explorations of the nature of evil in the context of child abuse very helpful, although certainly also extremely distressing & surreal in it's wickedness. It is unsettling in particular that descriptions of demonic possessions & exorcisms describe the nature & method of the sexual perpetrators so spot on. Deceptions, lying, manipulating, confusing victims, acting themselves under some sort of hypnotic madness that eats up soul light, while dragging the child into a world of mental illness and lies.

What is important to know is that the confusion victims feel is part of the ploy and needs to be addressed & healed first. Confusion is also what people in general feel who are in contact with a perpetrator (who can be the lovely neighbour, or the guy on TV). They feel drained and disorientated. Since almost everybody feels like this in the world these days victims don't really become aware that they are targeted by an abuser until it's too late.

Unfortunately Freudian approaches to understand the nature of evil & victims of it's abuse are very unhelpful and add to the problems. So far I have not seen one psychology based approach that was helpful to address & cure this evil. This is very bad for victims, as they find themselves being repeatedly confronted with ideas of them having 'subconsciously willingly participated'. To make it clear - this is not true, more so, it is an argument from the perpetrator's side. Nobody wants to be spiritually, mentally and physically raped.

Rites of Excorcism (The Prayer used in Catholic Church to Excorcise) 
Exorcism & The Way of Blame (A Sufi Perspective)
The People of Lie, by MS Peck